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Joey: Bessie, Pacey didn’t want me.
Bessie: I know, Pacey doesn’t want you and from what I’ve heard Dawson doesn’t really have anytime for you at the moment either.
Joey: But I just don’t know where it all went wrong (she begins to cry)
Bessie: (hugs Joey) You just kept doing what was working for you, you twisted men around your little finger, because that’s what you thought you had to do and you confused them, but I’m sure you never meant to intentionally hurt either of them, but you did and to be honest with you Jo, its gunna take you a lot to get them back to being even friends with you, cos at the moment neither of them want anything to do with you.
Joey: (sobs) I know, I know
Joey stood up and went to her room, she hurled herself on the bed and began to cry. Bessie was right, she was more right than she would ever know. Joey had loved and used both Dawson and Pacey. She had always believed that no matter how hard things got and how much she continually traded one for the other, she would always have one of them to go back too. Her brain reeled with all the times she had put herself before the feelings of the two greatest men in her life, she remembered breaking Dawson’s heart on the pier and every moment of breaking Pacey’s heart. She remembered all the times that she had gone running back to one or the other and falling into their arms in that same old fail safe manner she had become used to. And now the only two men who she trusted, didn’t trust her as far as they could kick her. She stared at the picture that Bessie kept on her wall, it was all of them. Pacey, Dawson, Andie, Jack, Joey and Jen. Jen, for once in her life Joey felt the true ache that was losing Jen. Jen knew what to do, she had always offered Joey her sage advice in times of trouble and she needed that more than ever now. How could she have been so stupid as to have believed that it would all be ok, Joey thought to herself. They weren’t 15 anymore and for once Joey needed to swallow her pride and do every thing she could to amend for her selfish behaviour. |
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